
Он написал мне слащавую поэму О_о После того, как я психанула по поводу его склонностей куда-то не в ту сторону и моих замечаний, что мне не хватает в нем мужественности и это лишает меня и без того зыбкого ощущения женственности.
После того, как в трудной для меня момент он не собрался с силами, чтобы меня поддержать и я два дня была головой в очень нехорошем месте. После того, как я мильон раз сказала ему, что слова для меня ничего не значат, потому что за ними нет никаких действий с его стороны. И после того, как я расплакалась у него на плече и выдавила из себя, что мне не хватает поддержки и заботы.
Где-то пищит внутренний голос, мол «вон, как парень постарался! цени!» Но по-моему то, что сейчас происходит это бред собачий.
та самая поэма для истории« There is a girl, smart pretty girl
Whom I was mad about
Her hair and skin so silky smooth
I can't compare it to the sun enough
I was entrenched in feelings chains,
I couldn't get her out of mind
And when I finally came out
My feelings were expressed so awkwardly
Still I revealed intentions of myself
In snowy wintry night
I was not sure she felt the same,
Confused, she seemed that time
We went apart, that night,
Each one to our friends,
But after that we spoke and cleared,
We want to try to date
When I was holding hands with her,
I was so full and warm
I felt her hand, her grip expressed
Her kindness and care
Time after time when I met her,
Spent time together more
I felt that feelings growing strong
I senced, I'm feeling,more
I acted more straightforwardly,
Though, trying not to rush
And only then I knew from her
Sometimes I pressed to much
I never thought that two of us
Cannot feel understood that much
When I agreed with inner me
That she's my loved,
I though things simply are
To be paper light
Our brains think different, our minds, sometimes have different point of views on different things,
But common sense does leave me
From time to time I know
I know I acct so stupidly. I unsupport, I'm rude
I break my head when tryin to figure out what's wrong
Because I thought that I don't act wrong
When I don't justify her expectates,
And I get that not fast enough,
I try to think, from different points,
And mostly I'm the wrong
And I frustrate, cause she's the one
She's close, she trusts me, I fuck up
But she frustrates the most, and that
That takes me up my balls, that breaks the picture of my world,
The way it supposed to work
Its as betraying trust,
Of one so precious kind,
My minds confused, cause I'm the one to make her happy, light, and natural
And yet I cause the trouble
It doesn't give her any of that stuff
I feel to much, I care too much
I want to hold,her hand
And kiss her gently
Be a wall
Close her from sad and bad
I'm the one you should rely,
I have you deep inside,
And I'm,sad that at the,moment you feel you can't rely
I feel that you're the one that I'm in need, in love,
I know that things for you get tough, and I'm sometimes the cause of that
I can be trusted, and relied,I misbehave sometimes
You know my feelings and my confidence in working this thing out
The most I'm pleased in my so everydayish life, is you, you smile, your hand, your voice,your eyes,
And here in writing kind of poem,
From heart, but pretty bad
I tried to write a text, in whatsapp
I couldn't figure what was right)»